farther leads to you
sink and whine
livid cries
I'm still in line
loose me, loose me

I cling to this
I know it's on you
it's around
this time I will be calm

see it in time
as far as I know you
you will be with me
as I whine

listening to: Gene - London Can You Wait

missing....
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am i missing someones? everyones?
or it's just something else??
or i just miss myself and the old days???
or am i going to be missing??? or forgotten???

listening to: Julie Delpy - A Waltz For A Night

ok or not???
what makes you act like a normal person?
what makes you still going forward, althou you are stuck?
how u made it or do it?
still life, or a passive ones?
still encouraging people, then yourself...
are they stifle??? or me??

Now i just have to enjoy the silence.... *shhhhhh*SIGH*

listening to: New Order - Regret

Am i in the clutch of memory?
Am i still cluctching the past memory?
All is coming back, all the nicest memory.
Den, past and recently... all is nice, but it's just a picture u can imagine...
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As if.

As if the physical proximity can make up for the emotional distance.

Perhaps it's to do with the realisation that i'm slipping away; slipping away from this world.
inhabit: world, which is not our shared world.

listening to: Denali - Lose Me

getting sick with the everyday routine of what am i doing now..
no more exciting things to do or to look forward to, everything is like a lies..
now i look more like a dead man walking.. what can i do to make things more lively and interesting??? hahah

They say that death kills you, but death doesn't kill you. Boredom and indifference kill you.
I Need More, Iggy Pop

listening to:Rjd2 - 1976

Dears, The
We Can Have It Lyrics

Last night all the horrible
Things in life
Start through my dreams and
I just want to shine it up,Shine it down or shine off

Going where we lost it all
Yet things before are with us nowIt hurts it kills
It takes a choiceIt brings no light
It brings no love

And what we want most
Is no where to be found
Some people care
They're going long
They're going deep
Still it's nowhere to be found

We're looking far
We're searching wide
Still it's nowhere to be found
We're looking far
We're searching wide
Still it's nowhere to be found
What we want is gone for good
It's simply nowhere to be found

Somewhere is the one that never will burn out
They're looking for a heart
Looking for a home
Looking for a hand
This broken head
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone
You're not alone

And you never said I'd see you again
You never said I will
You never said I'd see you again
You never said I willI willI willI will
My love

Someone somewhere says they've got it all
But that's not even what we want
Not even close Not even close

It won't ever be what we want
It won't ever be what we want
It won't ever be what we want
It won't ever be what we want
It won't ever be what we want
It won't ever be what we want
It won't ever be what we want

today is really an eye opener for me....
cuz kept thinking about whether being a good guy or a bad guy???
well now i guess i know what can i be.. of a person.. dat it's BAD...
cuz i think being nice is full of crap in this modern world...

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well for me now i guess i trying to be a bad person.. and let the whole world know dat i'm a bad mutherfucker.. hahaha

don't take me seriously, cuz i will got soft in my heart and just a matter of times again... "SIGH"

HAHAHA...

Dears, The Lyrics
Lost In The Plot Lyrics

Take me for drive to the coastline
Pull me to the depths of the sea
Leave me in the middle of the ocean
I can walk the rest of the way

And I promise not to cry anymore
All the reasons beat the crap out of me
Everyday when I wake up they are waiting

But I promised not to cry anymore
'cause it's the same old plot these days
oh it's the same old plot these days
oh it's the same old plot these days
oh it's the same old plot

Our love, don't mess with our love
Our love is so much stronger
Our love, don't mess with our love
Our love is so much stronger

oh it's the same old plot these days
oh it's the same old plot these days
oh it's the same old plot
same old plot
same old plot these days

Oh I promise not to cry
Oh I promise not to cry
Oh I promise not to cry anymore

i feel like i'm losing out...
i feel like i'm back dated...
feel like wanna hide myself...
feeling so sick...
feel like being buried under the cement..
feel so ronery...
feel so wonley (Lonely)...

and everthing is just so slow mo...

Listening to: The Bravery - An Honest Mistake

There is revolution followed by evolution. A two step process that repeats endlessly for everyone and everything that ever existed and will ever exist.
When we say revolution we mean an event in the life of something which can be characterized as a major change, where there is a definite, identifiable difference in the structure or very nature of the thing.

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Like everybody else, I am confused and upset about the crisis we are in. I offer these thoughts only as a way of provoking discussion. With the input of many, many people, maybe we can find a way out of the labyrinth. Provided everyone tries to speak truly what they think and feel. Not just trying to provoke, and not just trying to please.
How do most men deal with fear and other vulnerable emotions? How should they?

listening to: Belle and Sebastian - I'm a Cuckoo

i only have this to say......

FUCK U.. DID U THINK I GONNA TALK TO U????

please... i had enough, so i know my limit.. i'm not an fucking person who will die without u... so dun get me wrong....... u think u damn gd ar... try to treat u as a fren... u think something else.. just wanna get the fact.. THAT IIIITTTTT...

peace out... hahahahhaha

Jason Mraz - You And I Both

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Ohh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Ohh Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just are reads ofOthers only read of the love that I love
For love that I love that I love

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just are speaking of
And if you could see me now oh love love

Now you and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
more importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see me now
well I'm almost finally out of
finally finally i'm free

and it's okay if you have to go away
just remember the telephones are working on both ways
but if I never never hear them ring
if nothing else I'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else tonite and that's okay
cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see me now

Stoner Bear

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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in life peoples often ask, what can u do, or and suppose to do in life? be it good or bad u create it upon your own imagination... make a story, (a nostalgic, a beautiful movies kinds or the living hell ones..)
once a child u got a so call creator to make one third of your story. when u grow up, u need to change it or follow what have been created for u? and all of this depend on ones thinking and the energy of how you gonna makes it all happen? some peoples got alot of things they can do, but too bad they dun have what it takes to makes it happen... all they can do is just do it bit by bit.. till they feels they are out energy and things dun happen anymore.. and everything just collapse *poof* it becomes a flat ground. and that why you see alot of scary peoples outside, why they have becomes criminals. not becomes they make theirs life story like this, but they don't have the chance to do what they do best. so the mind in theirs brain becomes scatter chaos and create their story in a living hell state...

so just sit back and relax and think of how u gonna create your life after certain part of your life is done???
and as for me i need to go and get my arse up and do something with my uncertain life... so c'mon u bloody junkies, get up.. hehe. and let GOD give me the strength to do it..

... Amen to dat ...

Listening to: kings of convenience - i dont know what i can save you from(royksopp remix)

what can i do or maybe get a chance to make it all up??? when u did something or just speak what in your mind in a split of sec without even think for awhile.. you'll regret it... and i can't even tink or maybe get a last chance to recover it at all? even thou i get like 2nd chance to redeem it.. i guess i don't really see it coming.. how bad and blind can i be?
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althou i care but i can't show it, let alone say it. and i don't even speak in a normal tunes.. guess i lost my grooves and melody??? and my balance is out of the lines also..

Listening to: Louis Armstrong - La Vie en Rose

so what superheros are u???

Keane - We Might As Well Be Strangers

I don't know your face no more
Or feel your touch that I adoreI don't know your face no more
It's just a place I'm looking for

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in a different world
We might as well, we might as well, we might as well

I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier to be apart

We might as well be strangers in another town
We might as well be living in another time
We might as well, we might as well, we might as well

Be strangers
Be strangers
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now

i dunno what to write just got back from zouk.. it was gd but when it reach 1am.. all thing feel shitty to me, so i just left my fren again.. without telling them, left about 1.30am.. i just i gonna feel like dis till it all fade out.. hmmmm act till i cant act no more..