Go to heineken party at some warehouse today wif rachel and her frens.. the funny part was we came so early dat we end up watching the fashion show and my fren performance(and my fren performance is quite gd).. like some arty farty crap.. hee.. and yah i feel like some bossy person cuz i was sitting at the back of the merc car.. hee(driver let go to dis party near zouk warehouse) and rachel is the driver.. and i was late again to meet her.. and like everybody is waiting for the vip lidat.. hee Once we reach there.. we like lost soul.. dunno what to do.. den we leave the place about 11ish to coffeeshop to drink.. actually it's me drinking beer, the rest is having like soft drinks n all.. i guess her fren is quite cool in a ways.. well i had my 2 tiger beers bottles and redbulls as usual.. and they keep asking whether it's nice or not.. it taste like sweet and medicine if u all wanna knows how it taste like.. den we go back there like 12ish.. den meet all my fren der.. i guess rachel and her gang feel abit bored and lost.. feel quite bad about dat cuz i'm the ones who like ask her to go.. but she actually enjoy the set by herbaliser(ninja tunes) but too bad they need to catch a flight so the play for 1hr and half.. but she left early cuz her fren wanna go back.. so left me and my fren.. feel ok about meeting my old fren.. feel quite bored after 2 cuz not much ppls left.. so i decided to leaves at 2.30.. so i left the place without telling my fren.. hope they not shock dat i leaves without telling them.. cuz i see they having a ball.. so i shld leaves quietly.. now i wanna haf a gd rest.. tinking dat i had a gd party..

me listening to : The Silent League - Breathe

check dis group out.. very shoe gazing indie.. hee i like

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if u guys cant see the lighthouse click here http://mumweb.net/photopop.php?photo=specials/lighthouse.jpg#

i wanna go to this lighthouse where i can take a rest, picnic and make loves openly.. hur hur with e special ones... or maybe go there alone.. and just rest with the whistling of the breeze and tea or coffee on my hand or maybe beer or wines.. hehe.. and this light can be found on norway.. but dunno which part of norway.. i need to check it out.. who wanna go with me??? :)

You see her, you can't touch her
You hear her, you can't hold her
You want her, you can't have her
You want to, but she won't let you
You see her, you can't touch her
You hear her, you can't hold her
You want her, you can't have her
You want to, but she won't let you

She's not so special so look what you've done, boy
She's not so special so look what you've done, boy
She's not so special so look what you've done

Psychological Effects:>
These can include confusion, depression, sleep problems, drug craving, and severe anxiety. These problems can occur during and sometimes days or weeks after taking MDMA.

Side Effects:>
Nervousness, Rapid heartbeat, Hyper-excitability, Teeth grinding, Scratching/rubbing of skin, Eye twitching, Panic attacks, Muscle cramping, Seizures, Loss of consciousness, and Death.

you want to be like one of them???
scary eh...

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it throughAnd I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home withI hope I love you all my life

last nite went to out for a drink with chris... and e funny part was 2 jugs of bacardi coke and 2 jug of beers kill me.. not as in really trash me.. cuz when u drink wif aload of info on the mind can kill u easy.. unless u had fun.. so it's kewl.. damn i force myself to vomit cuz i dread to keep it.. hate e feeling of getting drunk.. high is gd enuff for me..
when i'm going home.. i dunno why i decide to msg ppl.. tink just need to know?? from smsing to msn.. hur hur. (while i Q&A in a drunk mode) and yes i'm talking nonsense or maybe not.. but i get a truth answers, and dat really not make my day for maybe a long while. guess it really funny in this world.. u would get an answer dat u dont wanna hear more often den u wanna hear. (u ask me and i forgot to said it was like when i saw u dat time u damn kewl and it was like what 2003 or 2004 forgot ald and not now only) hehe. since dat e case.. i wld still be a half mode.. waiting n not in e same times.. hopefully i can clear all dis soon.. since i know it.. really got a bad headache n feel like my soul been taken away now, and i slept only for like 4 hours.. and need to go to work.. tink gonna be zombie soon if i keep on dis kind of mode.. and i can be sure at werk.. i gonna be in a one answer mode.. hur hur
and i tink i need to hibernate.. find a cave n throw myself in.. hehe.

here some stuff for all u gd ppls out there..

Danger Mouse, Jay Z and the Beatles "Encore"
Directed by Anonymous
This hilarious video works perfectly for the Jigga-Fab Four mash-up that had everyone talking in the first half of the year. Set at black and white televised Beatles gig, the control room goes wonky and all of a sudden, Jay Z joins the Beatles on stage and starts laying down rhymes. The Liverpool lads don't take long to adapt to hip hop; soon enough Ringo replaces his skins with decks and Lennon even breakdances. A great display of digital trickery that is really quite hilarious. We don't promote copyright infringement here at RES, but the Internet sure does have it all, don't it?
http://waxy.org/random/video/grey_video.mov

The Streets "Blinded By The Lights"
Directed by Adam Smith
This video really blew me away -- it takes a musical lament about a confusingly drug-besotted night at a club and spins the context to place Streets man main Mike Skinner at an equally unhealthy wedding reception. Shot in full, sweaty, documentary style, Skinner spends the night at the reception getting sidetracked from hunting down his absentee girlfriend (who meanwhile, is getting way too personal with another bloke in the toilets) with enough pharmaceutical input to make Pfizer mail him their annual report. Skinner really proves his chops as an actor (he was acting, none of that could have been real -- right?), and "Blinded By The Lights" is shot well enough that in no way does it come across as a pro-drug romp. He even gets his head kicked in by angry wedding goers at the end.
*mms://a415.v91393.c9139.g.vm.akamaistream.net/7/415/9139/v0001/stream.wmg.com/wmi/uk/the_streets/grand_free/blinded/blindedByThelig

*copy and paste dis on yr window media player

Feeling

today start werk.. and it feel weird.. dunno why.. feel like it's my first time there
been standing all e times and times flies really slow like ppls pause n play during they watch porn.. hur hur.

and today feeling is really sucky.. esp when i got home.. feel sth is not dat rite.. and yes i guess it rite but not dat sure whether what i tink is really happen.. well ppls mind can really drift so far dat u can imagine.. welllll i got it.. and sometimes what u feel n tink can be so rite.. jus dat it's a big QUESTION MARK. if only i got the power to know the bloody truth... well dat suck too if u know much of the truth on earth. well now trying to drift back to my own world and try hard not to tink bout it.. just dat the feeling is so strong u find it hard to erase. if only i can reboot my cpu(mind). i can be a happy man again.. hur hur.. hopefully when i wake up later today it'll be gone.. dat if i can slp... damn dis kind of vibe always get on me.. welll i just have to deal wif it... be it now later or till u are dead.. need to be on space really bad... only god can help me now.. and let me walk the straight path of life....................................................
And yah i miss dat someone althou dis relate to her somehow... if only i could tell her dat i miss her.. but i tink she dun wanna listen also.. hur hur.. so let it be like dis.. better for both.. i tink.. heeee..

till den may everybody GOD bless u all gd ppls out der... Amen to dat...

Cheers

Now That I Miss Her
by Elefant
album: Sunlight Makes Me Paranoid (2003)

NOW THAT I MISS HER
When I first saw her, I knew that I loved her
When I said goodbye, I knew that I lost her
Now that I miss her, I wish I could kiss her
And tell her c'mon girl, you know that I need you
Chorus
And without her, it all feels the same
And without her, you got no one else to blame
I went to the movies and stared at the big screen
I thought that I saw her looking right at me
Chorus
And without her, it all feels the same
And without her, you got no one else to blame
But yourself, but yourself
And all I can do is just write a song about her
And hope that one day, hope that one day
She turns around, she turns around

I hear the phone ringingI know that she's callingI hear her voice singing
And this is her answer

a nice song when u feeling u missing someone..

today is a bit slack..

need to wait again for my fren.. seriously hate waiting.. but i dun care bout it.. been waiting all e time so i'm kewl.. go to apple centre cuz my fren wanna check her ibook.. hmmm.. i wanna powerbook....(drooling) den dunno where to go.. aimlessly i follow her everywhere.. feel like a dog.. hah.. see ask me where i wanna go.. i just simply said.. DUNNO.. haha.. but end up walking to gramophone.. look for dvd.. but shit it's not there.. so we walk back down.. n i saw my buddy.. long times never saw my crew.. so we sat down and had 1 beer.. talking bout his trip to goa with his gf and all other stuff.. damn i need holiday.. den head down home with a headache and alot of things in mind.. alot of info on my cpu(brain).. tmrw be starting back to werk.. shitty i feel have to go back to werk.. oh well need the money to survive..

Later...

today is damn sucky.. althou i'm tired to the core.. still wake up early.. damn dis mind.. cant switch off for awhile.. hmm

and yah tot of catching dis movies.. white skins.. look intersting.. tink it's a french films(i like)..
and here are the synopsis.. [Thierry has just met Claire. He's fallen deeply in love even though she has the only characteristic he dislikes in a woman: very white skin. Claire tries to discourage his advances but they are only drawn closer together. Thierry feels her coursing through his veins. He begins wasting away in the eyes of his best friend Henri.. But when he realizes that it was Claire's sister who savagely attacked Henri in a hotel, Thierry understands how little he knows about her and her mysterious blood ties.
WHITE SKIN is a love story about two people as different as night and day.]

catch it if u guys want to.. quite disturbing from the trailer..


Cheers

dis is my first time writing dis shit.. so i may just dump anything here.. ha

at last i finish my reservist(serving my country) *wink* the last 3 days can injure me in a split of sec.. lucky for me i just injure my knee.. damn it's pain n quite hard to walk.. but atleast i pass the bloody test.. so i can be a qualify guard.. haha so i shall haf my rest n start to go back to reality mode.. arghhhh i wish i can rest through out the rest of the year...